there are moments that sneak up on me
in the darkest hours of night when i feel lonely
reminding me of foolish days that seem ages ago
yet were not from that distant past to have let go.
days when love forever was a reality about to happen
dreams of you belonging to me were but a spell unbroken,
romantic nonsense and fairy tales gave my mind wings to fly
my heart was so sure of us being together till the day we die.
ha, what a web of childish wishes I had unthinkingly woven!
ha, wishes that left a part of me inside not just dead but frozen!
no matter how my cynical mind now smirks at those faithless emotions
pointless, irrational tears unsurprisingly keep blurring my vision
don't get why heart can't learn reason nor why it can't try to be practical
why it breathes for you even when with each breath it feels pain so real.
i try to break free from the illusions those blurred memories create,
for the hurt i make myself go through again and again, i try to regret.
but even if i could turn back time
alas, i know i will keep making the same mistakes repeatedly.
this is perhaps insanity, yet
i will let my heart bleed if it means i can have you in my dreams even occasionally.
