Just when I had been numb for so long
with smoky sense of right and wrong,
out of the blue what the hell did u do
that u changed thoughtlessly all that i knew
of myself to be forever true.
the heart, the organ, who beats to keep me alive
cannot think or feel or be cute, i am not so naive.
yet as it pumps out blood it starts to hurt so hard
i bend over, breathing, hiccuping and suffocating
gasping, moaning and the tears keep pouring
all the while shushing myself to be quiet
because it is disturbing to the freaking mind.
the pain is sharp, the hurt is deep
it is no nightmare, I am not asleep.
the scars within are still so alive
i thought they would vanish with time.
is n't soul just but a popular concept
to leave me warm when my lover left.
oh so i am a hopeless cynic, and to emotions i must surrender?
then what of u who strikes with careless words, i wonder?
u r warm, u r hope, u r sunshine
yet u leave me frozen in a dark mine.
it hurts to feel, it is hard to deal
the vulnerable desires still alive within.
There are more things to kill inside
Such is Life i realize
