Monday, December 12, 2016

Vicious Cycle




I wonder about destiny, I think about you and me.
When I think of love, i wonder what could have been.
It need not be an odd moment found in solitary
Even in a crowd, my thoughts, somehow, fly.
In my mind, i build up a whole new world brick by brick
Consciously letting my vain feelings play a mean trick;
The futility of this exercise does not daze me
That it will disappear in a whisper doesn't faze me.
My myopic subconscious rewrites our sordid history
Erasing the cycle of me hurting you, you hurting me.
As if wishing hard with all my heart can stop the sun from rising in the east
Like that, for us to have a happy ending, we need an utopia at the very least.
It would have been much easier if its possible for humans to change  truly,
But that's a marketing policy to sell hopes to those who cling foolishly.
Yet here i am, staring at a blank screen, thinking about you and me
Pretending to be blind so that I don't have to acknowledge what I see.
Stubborn me keeps rebelling against the chains I  have put on voluntarily,
Waking up everyday with a new reason to walk towards a delusional destiny.




Sunday, April 10, 2016

Need a parachute, I am free falling



So there is a background to this poem. I was playing this south korean song on a loop even though I have no clue about the language, but I found the beat, the rhythm, the feel, the voice to be so dope/addictive, that I could not not listen. But as I kept bobbing my head to the music, words somehow kept flowing and I had to jot it down. So here is the song [ hope you like it] followed by my words: 

I'M FREE FALLING

I am standing but my feet are playing in the air, am I really flying ?
What is this feeling, my mind is buzzing and words keep rhyming.
Baby, know this that I am in a daze, hypnotized by you, it’s no lie,
I don’t want to waste time analyzing, let me keep flying in this high.
Embrace me tightly, darling, as we go high, and higher up in the sky,
Dancing closer to the stars, with you in my arms, the apple of my eye.

My heart keeps thudding and looking into your eyes I keep fallin'.....
I am on the edge as i step out , I need a parachute baby, as I start fallin'...
The magic in the air makes me want to jump and I am free fallin'....
Is this love or is this madness that i laugh and cry as I keep fallin'....
The psychedelic lights in my mind keep me dazed as I m just fallin'....
My heart screams, my mind sings, I hold on to my parachute, I am falling.

This mindless emotion keeps spiraling out of control,
Intoxicated with you I play the role of a drunken fool.
I should come out of this stupor, soon I will have a hangover,
Yet this giddy heart of mine soars higher for you my lover !
Everything is brighter, my soul feels lighter, dizzy in excitement,
I want to enjoy this rush even if its true only for just this moment.

My heart keeps hurting, so much love it is holding, as I keep fallin'.....
Blinded by my feelings I step out; need a parachute baby, as I start fallin'...
Your eyes mesmerize and your beauty entrances me and I am free fallin'...
This is passion, this is lust, this is addiction, this is love and I keep fallin'....
The psychedelic lights in my mind keep me dazed as I am just fallin'....
My heart screams, my mind sings, I hold on to my parachute, I am falling.

Friday, February 5, 2016

Befuddled


You hold still and watch time pass you by,
You want to go with the flow yet you stand aside.
As if numb in parts but not quite dead,
As if waiting without knowing if there is an end.
Is it a hero you are waiting for or something glorious?
Or are you scared of your wants making lady-luck furious?
It's ironic how you crave to fly up in the limitless sky,
Yet frightened of crossing one predetermined boundary.
Does your inside feel cold even on a warm sunny day?
Do you often feel lost walking on a road that’s one-way?
You are told again and again, the do’s and don'ts
The shoulds and shouldn'ts of what one must want!
You wonder, don’t they hear themselves being contrary
Floating on the waves of time trying to be stationary!
How can one decide what should one dream or plan spontaneity?
Attempts as futile as trying to blind the sun shining vibrantly.
So you stand with confusing thoughts, teetering at the precipice
Lingering for a gush of wind to throw you into a pointless abyss.